to myself...
yesterday ayah marah2 ckit... mulanya disebabkan oleh anak kucing sepahkan makanan... then,timbul kisah lain pula...
dunno why all dis prob happen....
sedih nengok ayah cam2...
nak cakap ngan ayah rasa takut...xbrani...takut things become worst...nnt ayah ag marah...biler cenyap jek kiter jadi serba salah...
xtau nak wat aper...
hanya doa kakno mak ngan ayah akan dapat hidayah drpd Allah suatu hari nanti....
bersabarlah wahai hati... sume ini hanya dugaan dalam hidup...
abang kan ada...kan..kan.. heee~
sayang kat mak ayah abg farid kak farah farhana.... abang...
wsaalam...

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i'm homee..

to myself...
i'm home rite now...almost 2 dayz at house...just tito jek manyak...iskh...
donno wut to do...nak bace buku cam malasss...ekhh...test just nex week...adoih...
farahin...rajin2 kan diri ya...saranghe~
wassalam...

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to myself...
kak tim mencari org nak masuk kawad...
sgt sedih nengok dier g dari satu bilik ke satu bilik mmintak supaya org masuk kawad...
dtg bilik a~ein kak tim minta air...kak tim kater dahaga...Ya Allah...ksian sgt tgk kak tim...
tp ap leh wat...farahin ader klas rabu nih...takut xsempat abih lab n kejar bus...
mcmana kalau a~ein kat tempat kak tim...
mesti serabut otak...nsib bek kak tim lembut...
wassalam...

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mcm2 arini...

to myself...
today..monday..many had happened today...stat from the morning..my first english lab..quiet ok..pronounciation...huhuhuhh..tongue twister..twist my tounge ooo..kih3..then...i didnt msj abang till 12.30 pm..i dont know why...jahat btul...mmg rindu kat abang...tahan je...heemmm...then lab microb..learn bout microscope...ok laa...back from faculty..called abang...wuuu..now i know why shiro break up with her bf...firstly bcoz shiro feel that she didnt get along with her bf anymore..secondly from her ex, was bcoz he bout too jelousy with shiro family....ooopppssss...just same like me jerk...huhuhuhuhuhuhuhhh....then i know that shiro didnt like her bf said like that...bout her family..her bf feel like he didnt get like what shiro get...jeles lar 2...same like me tooo...waaaa....i dont want to be like dat...teruk nyerrrr...orang lain x shuke taw jeles2 ni.....dah2 la 2 farahin ooiii...stop jelousy to other people...especially abang's family...like what u post before..bersyukurlah kpd Allah dgn apa yang kiter ada skarang...bersyukurlah...ikhlaskan diri ok!!
past is past....maafkan orang lain...dan hargailah orang itu...insyaAllah...kebahgiaan akan dtg suatu hari nnt...bersabarlah wahai hati.....
wassalam...

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to myself...
jam dah pkul 12 lerbih...
xmsj abg pn ag...
xtahu knapa...
rindu sangat kat abang...

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am i feel regret?

to myself...
just dis morning abg call me..firstly i quite shock..why he calling me at dis time..very weird..and i also don't expected to him to reply my messages..bcoz he always buzy with his family and also his work..thus, i dont take hard of dat..but when abg called me,i just pick up the phone..and our conversation begin..firstly i dont want to talk much..just a little talk..but when he ask me about yesterday when my grandmother had a kenduri..it is best he ask? i actually want to bercerita to him..i just said em! ok la..bes! then we both quiet..i dont like dis quiet situation..in additional i talk with my sweetheart..i want to share everything with him actually..then i started to story about my anak buah..mohd adib..bla bla blaaa...then suddenly his ibu come..ask for baju kotor..after that he said ok la abg nak g tlg ibu..waaa...i feel like he doesnt take any attention..maybe he doesnt like...i dont know why...i just want to share with him..talk with him..always he do dat to me...i like he to help his mother...even, my luv to him make it very strong..bcoz he knows his responsibility...but can he talk nicely to me before he want to put down the phone?? or am i just toooo sensative for what he was doing...i just want attention! haa then..for that la u r so egoism!!!! u know farahin...just think bout urself...~~~hhheeemmmm.....astaghfirullah...farahin...just be strong ok...take it as a pinch of salt...and also dont be sensative....make it as pengajaran to you...yourself...ok fine if he dont want to listen just dont story to him anymore...ok...ya Allah...ku mencari teman yang sejati untuk menemaniku dan bersamaku di dunia ini....susah dan senangku ya Allah...insyaAllah...aku akan temuinya juga...suatu hari nanti...aminn...
wassalam...

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my grandmother's kenduri

to myself...
today my grandmother had a kenduri at his house at gombak.. i met all my aunties n uncles there..very riuh rendah...hehehe..as i also have my anak buah too...ag la bertambah meriah...kekekke.. juat a simple kenduri.. to my late atuk..my anak buah cukur jambul n also for celebrating this coming ramadhan...time have gone very fast rite now..hmm just today my cousin, kak ana told us about a story..it's about his son..mohd adib..just 3 years old rite now..she told about what had happen at family day at zoo negara lately..there have an iQ games..tiru gaya badut..hik3..just out of 60 children, adib is de among top three that can tiru de gaya of that badut.. seems like he have a gud iQ..alhamdulillah..but when de badut said.."go and search for ur father"..all children go and find their father..accept adib..maybe he knows already..he just standing there quitely..sedihnya rasa...i wonder what in adib's mind when dat situation comes...only Allah knows what He is doing...maybe there's a hikmah...insyaAllah..one day..i want a happy family...just my children got fully attention and love from both of us...their abi and umi....hehehe..insyaAllah..dik in ngan abang...kan kan..
heemmm..just when i got back to my hostel,i called nizam..actually i bout a little jelousy to his family..it is not jelos about what..it is about his family got a strong relationship between their siblings..waaaa...bestnyerrrr....can share everything...huhuhhu.. ~~~farahin..just always bersyukur to Allah..ok..u also got family and siblings..in a gud health too..even out there have more worst than you..just bersyukur for what Allah have gave to you...insyaAllah one day ur time will come...just be patient and have a strong soul..yamg penting mesti ikkhhlaasss.....
~~luv muhammad nizamuddin a.k.a abang muchh...
wassaalam...

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egoism

to myself...
i keep thinking... am i egoism?????
from my dictionary..oxford student..it by suddenly i opened to dat page actually..
egoism mean THINKING ABOUT URSELF TOO MUCH n also THINKING THAT U R BETTER OR MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYONE ELSE...
huhuhuu..so scary...i think..it's true...i am egoiss........
feel very sad rite now..
but i want to change! i dont want always kept thinking of my self only but people surrounding me i ignore them... maybe it is one of my weakneess...its true what nizam said to me..i am a selfish..always thinking about myself...
Ya Allah...bantulah hambamu ini ya Allah ke jalanMu... i want to be a gud girl..like ayang said..what had happen.. we r responsible to it..so,i must responsible to myself...
aduhai hati... mengapa terjadi sedemikian...

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microbiology

to myself..
i feel i want to stay up dis nite... he also stay up.. i think so.. hehehe.. he now at his mother's skul.. company his mother.. ok la.. he also at his holiday.. part time jobb.. kikiki..
lets we study microb.. 2 weeks more i have my first test.. microb oh microb.. about immune system.. i want to scoree!! u can do it farahin!!
chaiyookk!! ^0^
p/s.. thinking of him...
wassalam...

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change to new blog

to myself...
i've change to a new blog! hurrey!! donno why i do dis.. bcoz of one thing i feel very sad...angry...and....i also dont know why i do that...
now..feel calm rite now..no one know my new blog...n one thing..i now do not waiting for someone anymore...i mean..to whom who actually take care of me...give a comment about my post..hehehehe..
but..someday..i believe he will take care of me... =)
insyaAllah...miss him very muchh...
wassalam...

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